NOoooo, I really am a grumpy Gus. Maybe it's being so damn swollen all the time, maybe it's the high blood sugar and sluggishness. Sometimes I think it's just the mobility issues that make me feel like I have cabin fever in my own body. I don't know what it is, but JEEESUS do I just want it out already, lol. More or less 5 weeks or so left and it feels like an eternity. I don't know if normal pregnancies feel the same way. My mother keeps talking about her wonderful pregnancy and how she had absolutely no pain or side effects and I think to myself, DEAR GOD if I could just have ONE day that compared to a SHITTY DAY in her pregnancy, It would feel like heaven lol.
My feet get so swollen that they turn purple. It's partly to do with the high sugar crap. And YES, I'm drinking LOTS of water and keeping my feet elevated. There's really not much else I can do, unfortunately. They tell me to 'EXERCISE'. Obviously, you can tell my main OBGYN has NEVER had children - or had severe edema before. HOW THE HELL am I supposed to get up and exercise when I can barely wipe my YOU KNOW WHERE?! And DEAR GOD, have you ever tried to do yoga and/or take a brisk walk when you've got PURPLE SWOLLEN LIMBS? I'm SO freaking swollen that when I inject my legs, they automatically bleed. They're not supposed to bleed with a 5mm Insulin Needle. GARRRHRHHWRRRRR!!!!
I'm reaaaaaaaaaaaally disliking the Canadian medical system, lol. Yes, yes I know - all the Canadians are going to be at my front door with pickaxes, mauls, and torches. The system is wonderful for people who are ON it...but for people who are in limbo like myself, they're sucking as much money as they possibly can from me. What's bizarre is that Canadians REALLY think that it's way more expensive in the United States, lol!!! HAHAHAHAHAHA! That hurts my brain. Talk about believing everything that CBC tells them. URGH!
I can't even count how many cousins of mine have immigrated from Japan & the Philippines to the States who DIDN'T have initial insurance coverage. They were treated at 'COUNTY' hospitals and 'Free' clinics. Hmm, CBC sure doesn't talk about THOSE now do they? OH the United States' medical system is HORRIBLE! Free clinics & General Regional Hospitals for poverty stricken/underprivileged people? That's GOTTA be a lie.
I'm frustrated because there ARE no secondary options for Canadians and/or people who are immigrating here. It's the Government or the middle finger, basically. Sure there are 'privatized insurance companies' here such as Blue Cross, that provides bonus medical expense coverage, but there absolutely isn't ANY other main medical option aside from 'THIS IS IT - AND IT'S DECENT so YOOOUUU people better like it CAUSE it's COSTING US NOTHING and YOU A FORTUNE...WE just don't disclose all of that!'
They 'ROTATE' my OBGYN's here. YES, I've had 3 OBGYNs a DIETICIAN and a Diabetic NURSE now. They wouldn't do that for a normal Canadian, but because I'm not and paying out of pocket, they reserve the right to say, 'I'm getting as much as I can from you financially...and then my friends are too! HUZZAHHHH!!!'
'...OH and BTW, we only accept Cash or Debit.'
Just to come into their office to ALL tell me the saaaaaaaame God DAMN thing, 'Your baby looks a bit large. Your blood sugar is a bit high. You seem to be doing well with your new insulin treatment. Everything looks great so far!'...THEN add a price tag of $500 and say I'm good to go. YAAY!
Do you think people 2000 years ago needed a staff of freaking 5 people to monitor a pregnancy?! AAAAAnd lemmie tell ya, I'm not the first case of Gestational Diabetes in the world's history.
God, I'm so close to just saying 'F-THIS, I'm getting a freaking Mid-Wife and delivering this kid on Gabriola because of all these money hungry a**holes.' They DO IT because they follow internal Canadian 'protocol'. Since when did Labor and Delivery ever follow a SET protocol?! Every pregnancy is different and thus should be evaluated differently - or is that not a standard in Canada as well? Jesus CHRIST. I would've never got this type of crap in the States - I'm so frustrated.
So my 8 needles a day routine just jumped up to 12 needles a day. Apparently, even though my gestational diabetes scores were cut down by half, that wasn't enough to satisfy my 3rd OBGYN alternate doctor's sadistic needs. GRRRRRAWRRRHGHGHGH!
I mean seriously, I'm tired - reaaaaallly really tired. Do you even know what it's like to be on a 'diet' while you're pregnant? I'm freaking craving fruit, not heroin or anything, yarrrghhhh!
OH god and this VIDEO is taking foreeeeeeeeever to load.
Great, a representative for my alternate OBGYN just called to say I have TWO new appointments: one with him on Feb 10th and one on Feb 16th with my 'main' OBGYN. The conversation with the lady setting up the appointment was something like:
Me: He realizes that I'm not on MSP right? That, your office is basically asking me to come up with $500-1000 in the spur of the moment and that it's pretty impossible.
Lady: I'm not arguing with him - he feels that he wants to go over some concerns with your ultrasound and your current high blood sugar levels.
Me: Is there anything he can just communicate with Dr. Arbalaez (my main obgyn) that she could relay me...6 days later? I hardly think I'm going to die flat on my face in 6 days, I dunno...
Lady: Well It isn't a matter of life and death and it is your choice, but he recommends to come in to go over the Ultrasound Results.
Me: Is there anyway we can go over the ultrasound results over the phone? Because I already know most of what he's going to say...That she's pretty big for her size and that she may need an induction possibly month early. I've heard this from my two other OBGYNs already.
Lady: Let me ask him, and I'll phone you back.
Me: Thank you.
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5 min later:
Lady: He really wants to get you on insulin. He says your sugar levels are high.
Me: Umm, I've been on insulin for TWO weeks. My insulin levels have dropped by 50%. I've been increasing my insulin dosage with the help of my Diabetic Nurse from Nanaimo General Hospital.
Lady: Oh are you sure? That's odd.
Me: Well I DO have bruises and injection wounds from the 4 Injections of Humulin a DAY, plus the loss of sensation in my fingers from the 4 pricks of blood testing a day also...I'd say that's pretty SURE I'm on Insulin. Don't I have a chart there that says who I've been communicating with and being sent to?
Lady: Oh, the chart was under a different section - he must have not seen it. Let me relay the message to him. We'll give you a call back shortly.
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10 min later
Lady: He would like you to come in for a follow up with your insulin including a meeting with the Dietitian.
Me: I ALREADY MET the Dietitian and am ON a strict diet with her. I work with her 4 times a week over the phone AND then FOLLOW UP with my Diabetic NURSE right after!
Lady: Have you gone to Nanaimo General Hospital to meet with them?
Me: YES!! Isn't that on your chart? You guys SENT me there after I went to the perinatal unit after almost having organ failure due to Diabetic Shock.
Lady: Oh you were admitted to Nanaimo General Hospital?
Me: Yes.
Lady: We haven't received those records yet. What were you admitted for, exactly?
Me: Diabetic Shock.
Lady: Do you know what your diabetic test scores were that enabled them to admit you and treat you?
Me: 14.0
Lady: Oh that definitely is high.
Me: Yes.
Lady: Could you come in on Friday to meet with the OBGYN covering for Dr. Arbalaez, so he can go over all this information with you?
Me: It doesn't look like I have much of a choice.
Lady: Well, it's for the benefit of your health, really.
Me: Sure doesn't hurt his pocketbook either.
GGRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRAWWRRGHH!!
Ok enough ranting.
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Two new purchases for Isabelle's room:
Cherry Blossom Vinyl Tree! The only differences are that it's going to be blowing towards the left and the colors are Pink and Soft Pink instead. :)
Also, I got wooden blocks in her nickname:
It'll say Izzy instead of Abby. :) I initially had printed out and cut out stickers that said 'Isabelle' in white, but because they weren't vinyl and just cheapy stickers from staples, they didn't last and are peeling off :(.
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Sorry Mom, the movie hasn't finished uploading to youtube yet. I'll post it shortly after it has finished.
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