Waaaa~ She's 33 weeks! :)

Literally 4 weeks away from being term!

I don't really know what came over me - but pregnancy got a bit easier. I went through this whole 'F-THIS' mentality the other day while moping around...then bought some random decor for Isabelle's room and ATE a few oranges. That seemed to get it out of my system.

I then proceeded to wake up this morning to breakfast in bed for an 'early' valentine's day surprise from Christopher. :) Apparently the Gathering Place was doing some type of Valentine's Day bake sale that Christopher went to support and picked me up a 'breakfast in bed' package. He then made more breakfast which was healthier (because I couldn't eat all the sweets in the basket b/c of the diabetes).

I ended up showering 'quickly' (I say quickly, because it was quicker than normal - but it's like watching a whale running a marathon.). Then, I put on makeup (yea wtf?), did my hair, and proceeded to have a great fun strategy discussion on group pvp balance while having breakfast & coffee. I know, I'm weird - but stimulating conversation about class/character/race/ship balance design was part of my major. It's fun to me. ;)

Then, about an hour later, I checked my blood sugar to have it totally normal. WOOHOO! :) I overdosed on insulin - really and it worked. I'm normally supposed to have about 7mml of insulin, but this morning - due to the fact that there were so many sugar-y treats, I bumped it to 9mml. MY SUGAR levels were AWESOME! They should have dosed me that to begin with, sheesh. I'm always bordering too high with their dosages and have to sacrifice food/nutrition for the sake of keeping my blood sugar normalized. Anyway - I HAD AN ORANGE and it was OK! :P

It's just bizarre how the littlest things like that; Having an orange when you're craving it, just makes the rest of your day seem a bit happier. AND DEAR GOD...am I CRAVING fruit or what! Every time I have to withhold from eating fruit when I'm craving it because it's 'not snack time' or 'my sugars are too high' or 'i've had my quarter cup serving of fruit that day already', I get SOO emotionally uncontrollable and angry. It's nuts!

Christopher tells me, "At least you can identify that it's hormonal."

Yea, that's true...but I still don't like how I've been responding to lack of fruit, lol. It's unacceptable behavior sometimes.

Anyway, so the conclusion was, 'SCREW THIS! I'm having my GODDAMN ORANGE!' and had an orange to prevent being depressed for the rest of the day.

I was researching American Diabetes Association reports about the fact that their standards are quite a bit different from the Canadian Diabetes standards. I'm REALLY REALLY not a fan of the Canadian medical system in regards to these standardizations. Basically, because of the fact that the Canadian Medical system's budget is based on providing care for everyone over researching better solutions for peoples' well-being, they have a 'standardized' range of what my blood sugar 'should' be at X-many weeks pregnant. Yes, the American Diabetes association also has general standards of what the blood sugar range of an x-many weeks pregnant woman should be like, but the difference is that EVERY case in the States is treated on a woman to woman basis with her background evaluated. They won't ever just go by a 'standard range'.

What I mean is that, 25-35lb weight gain, although it is the 'average gain' of women in North America, isn't a 'standardized' weight gain in the States. They allow women to gain what they need to gain to sustain a healthy pregnancy without the help of outside medications such as insulin. With that in mind, if a woman has an overly larger baby that is in need of being induced early or needs an emergency or planned C-Section, that is also figured out ahead of time. Basically, women are allowed to be happy and pregnant as long as they're healthy - despite the weight gain or sugar levels. Sugar levels are definitely monitored and some women are treated with insulin lightly, but never to the effects of Canada's standards.

I mean seriously, what's even more stupid is that it's proven that women with Gestation Diabetes WILL have larger babies regardless of being treated with insulin or NOT, because the Gestational Diabetes starts once the umbilical cord is active. They've been growing this whole time - do you HONESTLY think that the insulin that I'm stabbing myself with 4 times a day this LATE in pregnancy is 'helping' my child grow SLOWER without developing some type of insulin resistance in the future? It's genetic. What recessive and dominant genes she inherits, determines what type of resistances and growth capabilities she'll have.

Idiots. Haven't they ever taken Physiology or SOME type of basic Biology? Is that not a standard in High Schools here? Haven't they had a chance to learn about dominant and recessive genes and their effects on offspring? Sometimes I feel as though I'd get treated even better in some third world country's hospital - just because they wouldn't have even fathomed treating me for this CRAP.

Regressing back to the whole American Diabetes standard of evaluating women in a woman to woman basis, Asians have a huge percentage and higher probability of having gestational diabetes. Not only that, but MY WHOLE FREAKING FAMILY (well all the women) have had it. NONE of them were treated for it and all had healthy babies. In the states, the OBGYNs would definitely address the issue of 'Watch your portion control and your intake of carbohydrates & glucose. You will have a tendency to have high blood sugar.' but that's it! They're able to enjoy getting fat and having cravings like NORMAL pregnant people.

My mother gained 50lbs; My Aunt gained 50 with her first and 70 with her second. My grandmother gained roughly around 40-60lbs with each of her 2 children. It RUNS in my family. They've all lost all (or most) of their pregnancy weight within a year after of delivery. I've only gained just under 40lbs so far and my OBGYN is flipping the EFF out because of the fact that the 'STANDARD' weight gain in Canada is between 25-35lbs. Do I LOOK like a skinny little white girl? I mean SERIOUSLY, they can't assume that I'm going to gain the same amount as some petite Caucasian chick from PEI or Alberta with no prior history of Diabetes. That HURTS my brain.

"Well you've gotta work on that portion control"

I'M INSULIN RESISTANT!!!!!?!?!! YARGHHH!!!! I barely eat anything and I have high blood sugar. That's just the way things are. You can expect that when the baby is born that they have a HIGH chance of being slightly jaundiced ALSO. HOOOLY crap, I'm psychic now too.

I don't HATE the Canadian medical system. I just dislike the naivety that some Canadians have with the American system thinking that it's SOOOO horrible, yet we hardly encounter BS like this. I've been so shafted by the Canadian system all around so far that it's just hard not to have a bias.

*sigh* This even makes me feel more better than I was feeling earlier - and today overall was already a good day, lol. Please don't take offense to my bitchings. This is 50% hormonal and It's just good to get it out here instead of subjecting my diligent and supportive husband to my crap, haha. :)